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NEVERTHELESS
My dear love, I admit it, that I've been always breaking your heart, hurting you again and again, breaking your trust, and then too you healed up and trusted me again. Nevertheless, I did it again. I admit all my mistakes, done deliberately or unknowingly. Hereby, we aren't together now. The worst thing that could ever happen to us. The condition in which I am, and you are in, is unexplainable. Life seems impossible, hard. Life has become lifeless, my only life is you. That's the reason why, I can't let go. If I do, anyhow, I would regret, you, us, and this strong feeling of love. It's that insuperable you know. It's suffocating, to breathe, to live without you. This pukish feeling I get all the time, I feel empty and broken on the inside, and only you can heal it. There are so many words, I want to shout. But the mistake that I've done, hasn't even left me to show my face to you. I'm dying with this guilt inside, that I broke your heart, your trust, and I lost you. The biggest loss. I'm a loser. But here I am, apologizing again, like if? If we could get back together, because I miss us so badly and my heart wants to scream that it loves you so much and wants to hug you and leave you never again. I lost you, like a diamond ring loses its diamond. You're that amazing and that important to me. All those promises I made, that I'll be by your side forever and ever, I don't want to break, though this is just an excuse for you to come back to me. But, believe me, I really love you. I'm always here for you. I love you, because I love YOU. As you are. For all the times you stood by my side, all the joy you brought to my life, you just made all my dreams come true. You're my strength and only weakness. You saw the best in me, when everyone took me as useless. I want us back, because I know I won't be able to live. I just want to be yours, and you to be mine, forever as one. I will be, a good girl, that you want me to be, a really sincere and honest one, that crazy lover for you. You just say yes, and I will move mountains to make you happy. My love, I'm willing to do anything for you, I'll change for you, and will be yours, only yours forever. And our very anticipated 14th November is near, which marked our first anniversary. How I desired to love you forever, which I will, but I don't know if we'll be forever. I'll make everything alright my love. You won't feel alone, I'll be by your side always. I beg you my life, come back to me, because I love you, and its the beginning and the end of everything. I love you, always and forever. Yours forever,
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