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MAGICALLY MR. RIGHT
To my loving Husband, Thank You for the many wonderful years of love, compassion, kindness, friendship and passion you have shared with me. Before I met you love had broken me several times. I had given up on love, believed it to be a delusion, just a fantasy that would never find me and if it did find me, it certainly wouldn't stay. After several heartbreaks in my thirties I had begun to believe it must be me, something wrong with me. Everyone I knew was telling me I was great, successful, kind, thoughtful, compassionate, accepting and loving, just settling for men with big deep seated self esteem issues that prevented them from having a healthy lasting relationship. I began to believe any men my age available for dating must be too broken; I began to believe I was very broken too. So there I was, 39, single, childless and devastated by heartbreak again. Dreading the approach of my 40th birthday at which I was sure I would somehow expire and never be datable or appealing to men again. All I had ever really truly wanted in this life was a husband and child of my own and yet it always alluded me. People kept telling me to let go of wanting that life and it would appear. They said to busy myself with other goals and hobbies and magically Mr. Right would appear. Yet, none of these folks had given up something they had always wanted and were giving me advice from the safety and comfort of their own marriage or family lives. Easy for them to say, they don't have to do it, I thought. I felt alone, once again in my life love and hope had left me. I felt lost reaching mid-life without any idea which way to turn, what I wanted wasn't possible and anything possible I didn't want. I was stuck. I busied myself with work and tried to fill my free time with anything tolerable to avoid the pain of love lost and being alone, again. I wasn't living, I was going through the motions. I felt pathetic, I wished and prayed that my desire for a husband and child would somehow just vanish, freeing me to live a different life and enjoy it fully instead of tolerate it all the while feeling like something was missing. Then the most wonderful amazing thing happened, you came along and made me believe in love again. You were so kind and patient with me, such a wonderful friend. I so enjoyed getting to know you and finally experiencing what love really is! I was in awe of your loyalty and devotion to me and to us. Our relationship was what I had always dreamt of and I am ever so grateful that you came into my life! Thank you beyond measure for loving me, really truly loving me! I am so happy to be growing old with you! Eternally yours, _____
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