| WE CAN LOVE SO MANY IN SO MANY WAYS What does it mean? I have felt love. Love for a soul mate that tears through me. It pulls at my very being. The love strengthens me and gives me peace. It gives me courage. It teaches me patience and loves me back unconditionally. I need that soul's love like air. And would give up my own happiness because of it. It is so strong that I misinterpret the purpose for it's existence. This souls love does not and can not belong to me. It was given to another as mine has been given too. If lives were recycled, I would hope to believe that this is what we chose for this life. In order for our two souls to eventually find each other. I hope that by sacrificing this gift in order to take care of the ones given to us in this lifetime - that we become good servants. I have known love or a partner so deep that I feel completely responsible for his happiness. The love he gives me settles and keeps me. He shows me devotion and teaches me commitment. His love is steadfast and reliable. His commitment to his role is to be respected. He is a good man and deserving of the best in this life. I have a choice. Destroy many lives by being truly selfish or continue on the path already set forth in front of me. I would not only destroy myself but all of us. I cannot have that on my conscious. I cannot hurt someone and not expect the same to happen to my family. No choices are allowed it is what I have been given. I was given the partner and will respect honor and love him and give him all of me that is mine to give. The only thing I can give him now is my body and my heart. The soul is not mine to give. So, we can love so many in many ways. Each different and strong. Each independent and yet connected. I pray for guidance in reconciling these feelings that I have. I do not feel guilty about loving but I do feel guilt for causing harm and endangering another.
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