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LETTING When we first met, I'll admit I thought you were a jerk. Worse than that. And I remember going into the bathroom looking at myself in the mirror and thinking, run. RUN. Get out now. All the signs pointed to the fact that you were a flirt and totally the wrong person to let in. But you surprised me, continue to surprise me with your ability to scale my walls I have built up. To see through my rhetoric. And even though at times the panic that I feel letting someone in feels like it is unbearable and I want so badly to hurt you to make you leave, I wouldn't want to go back. I wouldn't even give up the months we didn't talk. Because no matter how painful and real shit gets, I wouldn't want anyone else. Ever. Ever. That is insane. I choose the jitters over comfort, I choose you even though you aren't the most handsome or smooth. But I want more than anything to build you up and make you feel like you are loved. Because that's what you deserve! I want to be the one who dotes on you and makes you feel wanted. Thank you for letting me be there for you. I will make you happy. I will. Everyday.
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