WONDERFUL SCARES I thought I had found the one. I thought you were him. Never had I understood another person down to their core, never had I been able to open up my entire heart and soul to someone. I wasn't afraid to be with you. I wasn't embarrassed to be out with you. And you weren't ashamed of me. I was absolutely in love with you. You were in love with me. We were happy. I could see my future building around you, and I imagined marriage and children, and spending evenings at your dad's for a family barbeque. I never pushed, and neither did you. We were growing together, as a couple. But something happened. And I will never know what, and I will never understand why. The day you broke up with me my heart shattered into a million pieces. The day you said goodbye, I truly died, inside. And the wall of security that I had built up to protect myself crumbled. It has been almost a year. You have already declared your love for someone else, and I am happy that you are happy. I met someone last week. But I am too terrified of letting him in. He might be like you, completely wonderful. And wonderful scares me. What we had will never be the same. I believe for everyone there is only one true love, and I realize now, a year later, that I will never be yours. But you will always, always be mine. Take care, and just remember that you will forever be in my heart.
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