THE CRACKS OF EACH OTHER'S DAYS
One day, you'll be driving in your car, and our song will come on and you won't know what to do. Your girlfriend beside you will be oblivious to whatever overwhelming emotion decides to consume you.
And then the song will pass, and the silence is filled with some other song called in by a radio listener whose had a bad day, and needed to hear it.
That is how we meet now. We creep and weasel our way into the cracks of each other’s days at the most inopportune moments. And i know we said we ended on good terms, but when these moments occur, i hate you for it. And you know the word 'hate' is not something i use easily.
When i run into your friends and they ask me how you are, and i tell them "good." Not because i don't know, but because i hope its the truth. When my blinds are still closed at noon, because i didn't open them like you did to "let in the sun." When i realize my pantry is full of food you like instead of mine, but i ignore it because grocery shopping was something we did together.
I want you to know that i don't love you anymore. I miss you dreadfully but i don't love you. I miss...everything. I miss the way i would be able to tell you this instead of writing it to you in a letter. You always had the way of looking at me when i bared my soul.
I always seemed to need you more than you ever needed me. So tell me, what happens when your girlfriend needs you more? Will she become like me? How many girls will be spit out and suffer because of what you couldn't give them? Maybe you'll just receive a bunch of these letters, instead of some evil, threatening plot for revenge (You know it was always hard for me to stay mad at you.) And i hate you for it...just like those preposterous songs on the radio.
love letter collection
8:27 PM EST
Wednesday, December 11, 2011