YOU GAVE ME INSOMNIA


i knew straight away. a room full of men and i saw only you. i knew it. not sure you did tho. i do that a lot. feel on my own. you looked up, eye contact made. my initial thought? oh no not again. just once before id felt that spark, and got burnt. i swore i wouldnt indulge in "chemistry" again.

and then there was you. you gave me insomnia. trying to sort out in my head what it was that i felt for you. by dawn id decided to distance myself from you. and you trampled all over that decision, why were you drawn to me? you've never told me how you felt.

you went back home, putting miles between us. and 6 years on i still cant tell you how i feel. why? because you are more than i will ever be. and i guess the moment has passed.

i never told anyone about you, my secret. my forbidden fruit.

i tried so hard not to fall for you. im sorry. i cant stop. but if i told you, the rejection would pain me millions more that wat i feel now. u remain oblivious.

iv got to let you be. because while u remain anaware, you're free. untarnished by my filthy hands that ruin everything i touch. u remain perfect, my beautiful secret. stainless. im tired of getting over people who dont love me back. there will come a day where i watch you settle down and probably marry another girl, and she wont be good enough for you either. i thought time and distance would heal me, but its still as raw as ever, im an emotional haemophiliac, my wounds still bleed. and i still love you, the '____ _____.'

u know who you are.



the love letter collection
submitted 4:22 AM EST
Tuesday, May 3, 2011