WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?


Dear True Love / Soul Mate,

Where the fuck are you? I mean, I'm not trying to be rude but I'm getting restless and impatient. I hear about you everywhere I go. School, work, movie theatre, and on my television screen at home. Before, I could care less about you because I didn't feel the desire to need or want you. But things have changed. My friends and family have changed. I have changed.

I've lost myself and I feel utterly alone. I listen to music to keep my spirits up, write to hash out my feelings, and read to escape my reality. And each day, these activities help less and less. I can feel myself losing my mind, if that makes sense. And it's weird, because I have so many people surrounding me, but I can't turn to any of them.

Which is why I'm finally calling out to you. I need you so much it's not even funny. Because for so many years I've felt useless and unwanted and pathetic. People tell me otherwise but it's hard for me to see what they see. I need to hear it from you. Who ever you are.

I'm tired of fantasizing about you. I want to actually experience what it feels like to completely trust someone with all of my being. I want to have someone who will be my anchor, or better yet, my foundation. Someone who won‚t falter under the weight of my doubts and insecurities. Someone who can put some meaning back into my life. And I, in return, will try my hardest to make sure I do the same for you.

I don't want to rush you because I know these things take time. But please - just get to me. I'm losing my faith in everyone, including myself. I don't want to have to lose faith in you.



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submitted 1:55 AM EST
Sunday, March 6, 2011