SURVIVED YOUR MEMORY


Dear M,

It amazes me even to this day that I have walked a thousand miles from where you left me, thinking I have survived your memory, when clearly, I have not. I have only need to hear one song, see one thing insignificant to most and yet for me, I am thrown right back to where I started all those days ago.

I wonder if anyone can see through my eyes that my heart is cracked and broken, but I think not for I have learned how to be deceptive in my newly charming ways, to hide what hurts me most. I have learned how to smile and laugh without anyone ever knowing that the greater part of me exists no longer.

I have learned how to dance again and close my eyes and hum along to romantic melodies that knew me before I knew you. In the quiete of the night yet I lie awake and am drawn back to the place from long ago where it was just you and I, and in the quiet of the night I face the reality..I am still still here without you.

I miss you baby for all time, I love you like old times, never will I forget, no matter how hard I say I should, some memories never learn how to let themselves go. Goodbye again.



the love letter collection
submitted 4:51 PM EST
sunday, october 26, 2008