MORE THAN LIFE


Hi baby Last week meant more to me than you will ever know or be able to understand. Getting to be with you means everything to me adn i guess that the small things mean more to me than the big things if that makes any sense. you putting my socks on for me and tieing my shoe means alot to me because it may be something small it means alot to me, it shows me that you care about me more than any gift could ever do. Getting to curl up in a little ball next to you and have your arm over me made me feel safer than i ever have and i dont want to lose that feeling. When iam with you wearing only a tshirt with my hair all crazy and makeup running somehow you make me feel like i am beautiful.

All i have ever wanted to be since i met you was perfect. I want to be the picture in your head of what your ideal girl is. I want to be perfect in every single sense of the world whether it be walking in the mall or in bed i want to be exactly what you have wanted all your life and i also know you well enough to know that you are sitting there thinking that iam but iam not.....Iam gonna spend the rest of my life making myself perfect for you. You are the reason why iam trying to make something of myself and trying so hard.

I dont want anything to come in the way of us being together no matter how big or small, I know that all week i kept saying that petient is a virtue but iam really tired of being patient and i know you are too. Having to walk away from you knowing that it will probalbly months untill the next time i see you is tortue. Everytime i feel like iam dying. even it was only for 5 hours it was tearing me apart... it was like i was being ripped from what i want to do what i ahve to do. But i guess that all iam really tryign to say is how much i do love you and i got to see it and feel it even more. when i was upset you just let me cry and get it all out and even having you rub my back as i cried made me feel better. you will never realize how much thoose things really mean to me.

Its so hard for me to be open with people and let them know how i feel but with you its diffrent i can be me. even with my little fucked up neurotic things your not scared or critical of who iam but you just let me be who iam. That alone is reason enough to love you. But there are so many other reasons, your so kind and gentel with me you hold my hand and kiss my hand and even rubb my head your willing to even pay for my school and that is the most selfless thing anyone has ever done for me.

You are perfect. That is the main reason why i want to be perfect for you will do whatever it takes to be perfect i want you to feel like i feel everyday. I dont want you to ever hurt or be in pain or even doubt how i feel because no matter what happens iam never going to stop loving you. If it means that i have to wait to be with you i'll do it. I do want to be with you everyday and i never want to ahve to feel like iam losing you like i do now.

The only thing i want is for you to be happy and i know that us being apart is just as hard on you as it is me so iam going to try my best to be patient and wait for things to happen the way we want them to. So even though this is really long i guess there is just three things i wnated to say. I love you more than anything in the world adn nothing is ever going to change that.

You are perfect adn i cant thank you enough for being as good to me as you are adn everything you have done for me. and last iam going to somehow make you feel like i did this past week. so to sum up a really long email..... Thank you for being so perfect.... I miss you so much already... I love you more than life

[submitted 03/26/04]
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