this coke stroke of mine kept swirling inside of me
little no wonder it came & it went like nobody business at all
you tried to deny but i tried to withhold
you tried to search
i tried to move you
instead
i got caught
in your webs
in this suicidal attempt
to keep you you
keep you inside of me
to be with you
to feel you
to resuscitate you
to keep you close but not close enough
and i failed
you'd think im mad
but im not
im just fragile
im just someone else's forgotten love
im just in love
in love like the old maid who just waits at the doorstep
not for the prince-charming
but for her time
not just anyone
but just you
gasp for my love
gasp for true love
that's hidden in the corner of that beautiful eyes of yours
im waiting
im hurting
because it's never so true
this fairy-tale
is not one with my ending
i am ended
with my heart at your feet
bitten & squashed
into a pulp-mashed like my tearful eyes when i hear
i hear the saga
it's a saga but the seeds are at your mercy
lost in your webs
lost in my murmurs to be loved
again
again

[submitted 06/12/03]