You've been away for a long time,,,long enough for our son to be grown and moved on...long enough for me to fall in love again,,only to realize,,I cant...no one will ever be you. When does the pain stop and the living begin again? I feel like I will never be whole since you left.

You left bravely,,with a smile on your face and a promise to come back ,,no more smiles and a broken promise.

I've had a good life,,I wont complain,,I look at our son and enjoy seeing you there. Maybe by seeing you in him is why I cant commit to anyone else.

Someday,,I will see your smile again,,your arms out welcoming me,,but until that day...I will never forget you...

Look over me,,take pride in the child that you left behind..he is now a wonderful man,,just like his father,,I wish he could have known you..he would have loved you, as I have all these years...

[submitted 05/12/03]