I wanted to let you know that I'm not frozen anymore. I'm working on walking steady, sometimes flying and I realize now that I caught a glimpse of God in your eyes. I saw myself in that reflection and wonder still how you could ever not want that. And this is where the pain begins.

I ache for you and all the others whom I have loved...I see that we weren't ever really separate and this realization sometimes makes me sad. I miss all of you who decided to go away and especially you, who believed that he could. I'm waiting for you to remember and this seperation...Should I tell you all the things that I care about? How most of these moments we've been sleeping?

Alone, I feel that something great is happening and that once looked at directly, completely eludes me. How do I share The Elusive One when I can't touch your skin? I'm letting go of meaning, really I am.

You want our love to be unimportant, right? Feels impossible. Pure love experienced through form is not easily forgotten. How amazing, moving this flesh around as we do - Poets and painters continue without this form, i know that those dreams are true, and you are always singing from within a silvery purple sphere...

May good spirits surround and bless you. May your brow be smoothed and may I be given the chance to lay with you again.

[submitted 06/05/02]