its getting dark, too dark to see. i can't see your eyes as they fill with tears while i tell my lies. i can't see your heart as it turns to stone when you realise i'm being me. i can't see your face crumble as my words break you down. can you even see my frown?

The dark is clouding my perception..i can't tell if those are tears of anger. are you angry at the careless way i treated you? or are those salty tears of pain? did i wound your proud and gentle heart? could i be wrong?

are those drops of joy...are you happy to see me finally leave you be? i guess that's why i brought you here..so you wouldn't see me laugh as i toy with your emotions. so you wouldn't see the tears that laughter brings, cascading down my smiling cheeks. the darkness cloaks my motives.

do i dissapoint you? is this the way you thought i'd be? i guess not, or you never would have made love to me.

times have changed my dear. i guess i should have told you my intentions before it got so dark. - but thats not so fun..if i had would you have played along? does your heart harden as you hear my words?

is your blood boiling because you hate me or you hate yourself? frankly my dear i don't give a damn because its your own damn fault! you shouldn't have been so sweet and appealing..you shouldn't have let me suck you in. I'm a black widow couldn't you tell?

will this experience change your perception of love forever? did i ruin you and tarnish all your gold? will you swear off relationships forever or will you come running back for more punishment?

i can give it to you again if you want...we can make love again again and again .....i won't speak to you till we meet months later in the dark. dark like now.when its so dark..so dark that you can't see the pain I HIDE from you....

[submitted 05/27/03]