I WAS EVER REJECTED
I've always been at a loss for words. I have been for so long, even in
our short, minute conversations. I've hidden much simply because it's
always been in my own self-interest to do so. Am I selfish? If self-preservation
is selfish, then please forgive me my fault. I think it would kill me
inside if I was ever rejected by you face to face. I know that there are
those that have seen the looks and feelings exchanged, but do not know
really know that few words have ever been exchanged between us. As it
were, it is none of their damn business. To try and imitate my writing
style, as though a letter I would write would even remotely resemble my
poetry on my site is absurd, but they've tried.
So many out there that think they are so superior in their knowledge,
but in truth, so ignorant in their fuzzy logic and shallow existence.
What do they know of love? Furthermore, how could they? I could care less
what others think. I am in another place, studying and moving onto a better
life that they could never have. Biochemistry is a pain in the ass, but
as it were, I chose that field of study. We all chose our own destiny
to some extent despite outside forces and other obstacles.
But I have not let any outside influences deter me from loving you after
all of these years. You know I love you. Always have, always will. It
doesn't matter whether or not you care. In my cruelest and crudest moments,
I am defensive, but beyond these base emotional responses, I am still
in this tormented prison of a soul that I have created for myself dwelling
over my unrequited love for you. But I know now that my love is not forbidden,
for we are both adults in different towns and living different lives.
Hope is a dream, and my despair a reality. Do you not see nor care? I
live my life without you, but even so, I still continue to love you.
Your Former _____ Student.
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