I WANT YOU TO FEEL EMPTY


I want you to wake up tomorrow and feel alone. I want you to feel empty. I want you to feel a deep bruising in your heart and a hollowness in your stomach. I want you to wake up tomorrow and know that leaving me was a mistake. I want you to rethink everything that you said, spend hours recreating the conversations that we have had, replacing your goodbyes with pleas for me to stay. I want you to not accomplish anything all day, all you can do is miss me. I want you to know what my life has been like since you walked away, I want you to beg me to come back, to vow to make everything right, to promise to love me again and not leave. Then maybe I will be ok.