Babydoll,

Time passes but the pain persists.

Shock is all I feel even after 2 months. I hate the terrible distance between us Linda. I've always hated it. Only 8 turns from my house to yours, 8 turns over 520 miles. 520 miles from the woman who I know is my soul mate.

Our time together was short but nothing short of magic. I've never loved as deeply, freely, passionately as I love you. I love you unconditionally, infinitely, fearlessly.

At night when I lay down I remember you laying in my arms, snuggled against me, with me kissing your forehead and whispering "I love you" as you drifted off to asleep. Your brown eyes haunt me at night when I close mine.

I remember our Valentine's Day weekend trip to meet your parent's in Maine and our trip out to the granite bridge at Bailey Island to get the sign that they put up welcoming us. It was bitterly cold but I was so much in love, I would have never told you that my body was freezing, for my heart was nice and warm, that's all that mattered. I hate that our trip was cut short by us having to race back to Pennsylvania to beat the coming snow storm. I really like your parents and still can't believe that they liked me so well. They made me feel at home, 950 miles from mine.

We were convinced that even God wanted us to be together. I still am.

I loved to lay in bed at 4 in the morning when you returned to the bedroom after your morning shower, totally nude and beautiful. You would get all dressed up and do your hair, you were stunning. It was amazing to watch your beauty transform from simple to sophisticated in just a few minutes right in front of my eyes.

Linda, you're the center of my universe. My reason for being. My time with you was the only time I was ever happy. God was I ever happy with you!

I know you are the woman I waited all of my life for, you are.

Now you're gone. There will be no other, ever. There simply isn't any other woman like you in this world. I don't know how to cope, I just don't. I found love greater than I could even contemplate, and I let it slip away. I cannot forgive myself. I thank God for bringing you into my life. I thank God for our time together, in our hearts and in person.

I'm so profoundly heartbroken that its over. I can't find the words to say it. My heart only half beats without you. I shall never forget you. I miss you every second of every day.

Now and forever, I love you!

[submitted 06/14/03]