HOWS AND WHYS


Dear _____,

I wrote you this letter so that you know how deeply you have touched my heart. In the few short months of this last year, you have come to know me as well, or better than I knew myself. You had taken the time to want to know me, inside and out, honestly and truly. You made it easy for me to open myself up again, and that allowed me to meet the most honest, loving, beautiful woman in the world.

I keep rereading your letter about you leaving and now I hear itâs true -I thought I was past this, but some things just donât change like how I feel about you. I know for you, itâs what you have to do- Itâs been difficult at best not seeing you as much as Iâd like, but the though of never seeing you again is tearing my heart apart I just can't imagine that. and truly_____ you know from the deepest foundation of my heart I wish and hope for you every success possible.

Yes, the possibilities! I can't think of a more deserving person. Except for your family, thereâs not anyone who wants to see you reach your goals and potential more than me, you could not have a stronger supporter or a better friend, and most assuredly, there wonât be anyone here more hurt by your leaving than me. But I am happy for you

You said thank you for being a big part of your year here Iâd like to say thank you for being a part of my life I know Iâm a better person for it, for getting to know you, for getting to share the time we did. For being able to look in your eyes, to touch your beautiful face, your skin, and see you smile. I walk in your old area now; I stop take a deep breath I can still smell you; I still smell your perfume. This is probably pretty silly, but Iâve sat at your old desk a few times closed my eyes, and remember the coffee, our chats, brushing your hair, you rubbing my arms just looking at each other and the sweetest most incredible kisses I've ever known.

I miss you _____ and I tried to put you out of my mind so that my heart wouldn't ache anymore. I wish I didn't care so much. I wish I didn't miss you but I do. I try to deny it and I try to pretend I don't care but I do.

I know I should be past this, but as you know Iâm not but I just want you to know _____ what a special person you are and what you mean to me. I know that as my life goes on, others will come and go. Some will leave an impression others will leave their mark. Youâll leave with an undeniable presence that will not go away, nor do I ever want it to go away.

There will always be a special place you will hold deep in my heart, and I will always cherish in my memories, the smile in your eyes, the softness of your lips, the sensuality in your walk. I guess there will never be any true describing, of an indescribable you. Remember I told you once that to be your friend was all I ever wanted... to be your lover was more than I ever dreamed.... Thank you for making my dreams come true.

_____ no one will ever fill, the special place that's yours, and I canât imagine a time that you not could ever reclaim that spot should you so desire. Itâs just something Iâve seen in your eyes, so deep and filled with life and joy. 'âm very happy and honored you let me in, and that you let me be a part of your life. The things you taught me about myself, life and love will undoubtedly last me forever, and I will never ever forget you

I remember how we discussed the hows and whys of why we come into peoples live, and how we wondered why we came to each other as we did. Neither of us knowing why, yet just accepting.

So now that things have changed, I hope that I have touched you in a positive meaning full manner as well and that should you find yourself reminiscing the summer of ____, that thoughts of warm summer nights at the beach, drinks in the park, Somewhere Else, and a boat ride or two will only bring a smile to your face. /

_____ you will forever be loved and never forgotten. You will always have my heart no matter how far from me you are.