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POWER
TO RULE When I met you, I knew nothing could happen. I had to leave, we just didn't have the time. But you were too perfect. Your personality, your caringness, your eyes, your beautiful face, your everything was just too perfect. You were my best friend, and I wanted to leave it at that, but I couldn't. I told myself I couldn't, but that was impossible. You were everything and more than what I was looking for, what I had been wishing for all those years. In my wildest imagination, I could never have dreamt of anyone as perfect as you. When we were together, the world just seemed to make sense. The skies seemed bluer, the grass seemed greener, and the people seemed happier. When we were together, I wished the days would never end. When we were together, I felt like my life meant something to someone, I felt like I wanted to live, and I found the reason to live. I didn't want to, but I had to leave, I had to go back home. I told you I'd be back, and you knew I would be back. We talked, we tried, I clung on to the hope of what could have been. Hope does not make things work, as I found out too sadly. You found someone else. I don't know if I love you. You were my best friend, but you forgot about me. I call you, I write to you, and I rarely hear back from you. I don't think you even realize you hold my heart so tightly in your grasp. Everytime I try to become angry with you, I just fall deeper for you, and your unknowing grasp tightens. I want to stop loving you, but I don't want to stop loving you even more. Even though that spark of hope may never ignite what I hope could be, I realize I will never find another person like you.
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03/19/04] |