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Dearest _____,

Today is Valentine's Day and I feel so alone. I know I wrote in my last letter that I would not write anymore, but today you called. I can't not write, writing being my only connection to you. It was wonderful that you called today, on this day devoted to love, that you thought of me even though we are so far away from one another, from the us we once were. I miss you, I miss your laugh and your smile, and I miss the you, you were when you were with me. I miss the warmth of your body next to mine as we slept. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me. That's what I hoped to give you forever. I thought our love could do anything we wanted it to. I guess I thought wrong, or I was always wrong. I believe that if I were to be closer to you, geographically, we might do things we regret and I don't ever want to be the other woman, and I am afraid that is what would happen. I know that I long for you in most of my waking moments and in all of my dreams.

Loosing you was one of the hardest things I have ever done, and I don't think I could do it over and over again, like every time I talk to you on the phone and I hang up, it hurts as bad as the day I packed up all my things and moved out. Yet I still call and I still write, I guess I am a masochist and I enjoy the sorrow that even the dial tone brings when I here your voice. So many nights that I thought that I was doing fine; thought that time had chased your picture from my mind. So many times thought my heart was finally strong. Now I find this heart of mine was so wrong I thought I'd finally learned to get on with my life. I hear your voice and I hear the way things used to be, I feel my heart fall in love with you again. I try to keep you off my mind and I hear your voice.

So many days I thought that I could love again, but any fool in love would know that's all pretend. You always seem to find your way back in my dreams and I can't break free. You know I tried so many times just to forget you. I've tried to walk away from you. I've moved far away, its just no use, no matter what I do; I hear your voice, inside my heart and in my mind and over the telephone line. Every night I hold you in my dreams and everyday I carry you around in my heart. It is hard to imagine there is anyone else that could ever replace you.

I will try and I will move forward, but I will always love you and need you in my life. Hear my voice?

Lots, always and forever




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