FALL INTO THE PIT OF HELL


Seeing you sitting across the table from me today was terrible and wonderful. Your green electric eyes burned into my soul. How could you say you love me and are connected to me. How could you say that I could lead you anywhere? Have you no mercy, my heart is broken.

I try so hard to listen to God's plan for us. You with your family and me with mine. And yet temptation is so complete when I look into your eyes and your hand brushes my shoulder. Just say and I would leave it all behind and fall into the pit ofhell with you, (but please don't). How can I exist? You have awaken things in me that were never alive before. I just want to vomit over and over when I think of what will never be. I should never have seen your soul. I should never have looked in your eyes or imagined the passion in my soul erupting through my heart and body for you.

To show you and feel you would be pure, wonderful sin. So, I am walking away (and you are begging me to stay). It is the hardest thing I have ever done. I love you and cannot destroy you and all you care about. Better for me to die and everyone who believes in who we are, be spared their faith. I will never forget seeing my soul's reflection in yours. I have been marked forever and am broken. I must give this to God now, it is too much for me. Sunset has come.

Goodbye my love.

the love letter collection
submitted 5:14 PM EST
thursday, september 11, 2008