DUE TO PAST HURTS


I love you. I know I do, but you're at a terrible disadvantage in this relationship. I am torn emotionally due to past hurts. I love you so deeply, and I know that you love me, but the pain from being decieved the way I was for the length of my marriage still stings. I've never really been the type of girl to put up a wall to keep people out, but I feel like I'm not letting you completely into my world.

I'm so afraid of being hurt again, that its probably going to take a while for me to let my guard down completely and let you in all the way. I want to be all yours and you to be all mine, however, as much as I hate it, a part of me still belongs to him. He and I share a child, and will always have that connection.

What you and I have is something totally different. My feelings for you are completely unfamiliar and unknown, yet at the same time I know in the very depths of my heart that its love. What else could it be? I trust you, I care for you, I am comfortable with you, I listen to you, I confide in you, I love you. I never in a million years would have dreamed that someone like you would come along when you did. I expected to have to wait and wonder about my soul mate, my prince charming, my lover, but no. You came along at the perfect time in my life and rescued me from a dreary and depressing situation.

You have made me so happy, and have done so in little ways. There have been no grand gestures or over the top productions to show me that you care, only little things. The way you are with my daughter, the way you make me laugh, the way you cuddle with me at night, the way you let me rant and rave about life's drama, the way you hold me in your arms, the way you spoil me, its all ways that you show me you care.

When you told me that you were in love with me, it scared me to death. It scared me because I knew that I loved you too, but to let you in would mean for me to be vulnerable again, to be willing to get hurt, but more importantly, to love again. For that, I thank you and I love you



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