You might begin with saying that the evening was still all about me and finally coming together with a person and situation I held in my dreams and heart for almost 2 years.

The truth of the matter is that you are so very unhappy and selfish that until you DO something to change the course you've tied yourself too, I can't be of any use to you as a friend or companion.

You can counsel your way out, around and through all of what's been between you and I. But despite all your forgetful and ignorant excuses, I know that you are aware of what's happened to our friendship and our love.

You think I'm a cold, disloyal and heartless soul for sounding so matter-of-fact and dispassionate, and perhaps I am because I'm drained. But know that I do much miss you very much and love you terribly, you are irreplaceable.

I wish the situation was much different and that you and I were together again, giggling smiling and talking into the day or night about all the romantic, creative, courageous and wonderful dreams, plans and wishes we desire for ourselves, each other and this world.

Moments that you and I can only share as only you and I. You have only yourself to blame. I have done nothing wrong, except allow your fear and pain to grow and spread over me.

With you I've learned what true family is and the lengths you'll go to love someone unconditionally.

[submitted 11/19/02]