CALMLY WALK


never in a million years would I have thought you'd so calmly walk into my life. That night when we met I knew there was something so special about you and I was caught up in the dream-hook, line and sinker.

the hours we shared weren't enough and each day I find myself thinking of you, wanting you, wondering how our lives would be if the situation was different. alas she came into your life first and has a hold on you that I don't know if I can break. Do I really want to? Maybe it's not my place to. If it is meant to be then you will leave and come to me.

All of me I am willing to give to you. All of you is what I deserve but cannot have right now. If she wasn't sick would you leave? If you could go without hurting anyone would you leave? I already know the answers- so why do I torture myself.

They say you can't choose who you love. I believe this because I would never choose to love a man who can't be mine. I'd never choose to break up a family. I'd never want to be the reason someone else's heart gets broken. I'd never choose to love you the way I do and to go through this daily hell wanting you, needing you, dreaming of being with you and not being able to.

I almost wish you'd calmly walk out of my life and break this hold you have on me. I want to live my life in love with the man of my dreams-my man. Instead I'm in love with a man I can't have- someone else's man. I want to do right. I'm going to. I just want you to know that if loving you is wrong I don't want to be right. I don't want to, but I will.

Goodbye my sweet . Should you ever leave, should circumstances change and you are ever free, I will be here waiting, still wanting you and loving you.

Forever

Me