I had a little free time tonight so I decided to write you a love letter . Sitting here all alone is so boring and depressing. I now know how you must have felt while I was away, at least until you were able to adjust. But I am writing you a letter, something I wish you would have done more of when I was gone. It is only one night, but since my friends are not around I feel so lonely, maybe now I understand what you mean about your friends being there for you, not that I did not believe it before. I can see how important your friends must have been, going through all that you went through these last few months.

I hope that you understand how I feel right now. I am totally in love with you as I have been for our entire relationship but now after all I had to deal with over there I canÕt help but want to be with you all the time . I remember telling you when we first started to date that you can never come between my friends and me. I still feel that way and know that now you feel the same about your friends. I know you relied upon your friends for support through everything that has happened and I do not want you to blow them off now that IÕm here.

I hope that I did not scare you the other night; I really do not know what came over me because you know that I do not usually act like that. I am being totally honest when I say that I cannot sleep without lying beside you. Why this is I do not know, except that I dreamt of you every night that I was away and now that I am home I canÕt bear to be apart anymore than is necessary. I do not mean to scare you by saying this, and really hope to get past this stage as quickly as you do but, it is where I am at right now. I am sorry. When we started to date it was you who blew off your friends and it was me who wanted to still hang out with my friends. Now it is you who has friends to hang out with and the only friends that I have left are pretty much losers .

I guess what I am leading up to is-you are my best friend-and I donÕt even care that you are. You share all of my hopes, values and dreams. Who else could my best friend be?

We have been officially dating for three years. Of those three years we have been together for about half that time. That is something that I really regret but cannot change. Most couples in that situation would have already called it quits but we truly are special and are meant to be together . Because of this I feel that we are able to overcome anything.

I love you and am missing you right now and every minute that we are apart.

[submitted 01/24/03]